Lost Center

I lost you in the darkness
I couldn’t find you for all I’ve tried
Through the trees I hear you voice
It calls out to me
I think
I hope
But no…its not my name you call
You have forgotten my already
I am but a distant memory already
Given over to the wind and rain

Harsh nature makes me see the truth
I have been abandoned
Once more I find myself lost
Amongst the thousands
The mindless throng
They cannot see me you know
Not really, to them I am as invisible as the wind
As inconsequential as one star amongst the millions

But tell me this my kind betrayer
My gentle Judas in the night
Without one to know us, how can we be?
Am I really here…if no one knows to know it?

Always it has been you,
My Muse
My Aphrodite
Who has made me….
Me
You were my center and now you are gone

I exist no more without you
Then a circle without a center
You have shaped me
You have defined me
And you have left me
To fade
Fade
Fade

But I am not so easily banished I think
I cannot be whole as I am
But still I SHALL be
One way
Or another….

You have unmade me
And I am left as nothing
But
Something more then nothing
Something left to hope
To grow
To be

See me

Or I’m already gone